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desember 2013

The bubble has burst and some meaningless info

I have been in a "life is okay" bubble for about a week now and it's been good. But now it's burst. Reality is crashing in the door and I can't pretend that nothings going to change anymore. I hav...

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Today I have done everything I should have done two months ago.
Suddenly capable of doing very much in a hurry. It won't last, but at least it looks pretty good here. I have even decorated th...

Tired

It was a "good" and difficult session with U today. We have some things to figure out after christmas.
I let her read my diary from the last week. I did not read through it before she read i...

It's sunday (or at least it was 10 minutes ago...)

I have survived the weekend.It has been okay. The kids are satisfied.It has been and is difficult to keep the looming feeling of heaviness at bay. I have prepared them for a very slow and mellow ch...

Struggling

It's so difficult to keep myself together now. I'm constantly fighting with myself. There is a very big part of me that just want's to disappear. I'm having a hard time to stay focused. It seems li...

Hide

That's all I want to do now. Hide and never return. I am shrinking.I have a strong need to curl up to a ball and lie down in a corner.Cover myself with a blanket and stay there. Forever. Hiding

Group therapy

No. Group therapy today was not good.To much talk about heavy stuff too soon with the new people on group. I didn't now how to deal with it. I didn't say much at all except answering when spoken di...

Thoughts in the morning

I wrote a post on my phone but I lost it, so I have to write it again. I woke too early today because my son woke me to say he felt sick. I said he had to go to school anyway, but that I could pic...

Nattlig klaging

Jeg burde ha lagt meg for lenge siden. Minst tre timer siden. Jeg har faktisk fått gjort litt i dag. Det føles bra i det minste for ellers så har jeg det ikke så bra.Jeg klarte å holde ting unna t...

Days

It's so frustrating that my emotions comes and go.  Is on and off. I'm okay. I'm so not okay.  I feel that I am losing. I am losing myself. I'm losing the people that's important to ...

Calmer

My mind has calmed down and emotions are not going up and down all the time. I haven't slept anything this last night. I'm quite tired now. But I hope I get myself early to bed tonight so I'm re...