september 2014


Going home today. I'm thorn between thinking it's a good thing and that they do not understand the risk they are taking. But they probably see things I don't. At least my best friend is drivin...

Mental wound

I have a wound in my chest that keeps getting salt in it. I don't think it will ever heal.


I didn't get a new psychologist. There had been some mistake so my appointment today was with the psychologist I've had since march. So no solution and I wasn't able to say anything about it. The...

Therapy and psychologist

Got a call from dps that my psychologist is on sick leave. So they asked me if it was ok if I got a new psychologist. And I said yes of course. Now I don't have to ask for a new one myself. I tol...


Today I got yet another new contact for the day. If I'm supposed to have a chance to really get better, I can't have to relate to new people all the time. I'm going to try to tell that I need a ne...


Why do I keep hoping for help when I can't even help myself
Paint me Black

Paint me Black

41, Re

Woman with AvPd (avoidant personality disorder), social phobia, ADHD and depression.

I'm honest and don't hide anything here but mine and others identity.

I'm a mom to two teenagers.

I have weekly individual therapy with a psychologist and I have meetings weekly with a psychiatric nurse.

My wishes is to be able to manage life without breaking apart at every little bump in the road.

I want to live, but not like this for the rest of my life. That's why I am trying to do something about it.