august 2014

I just want to crawl under a rock and disappear

Things are not ok. I'm depressed and everything is too much. Have no energy to do more than absolutely basic necessities. So that means showering when I have to go somewhere or someone comes to ...


I did it. I was able to write things I needed to tell the psychologist. I was able to show it to him. I was able to get through the session almost without losing my words. I was able to make my...

Terrible day

With yesterdays emergency to the vet with my poor act, the news about Robin Williams in the middle of the night, another not good session at the psychologist, talking about selling the car again, p...

Poor kitty

It was thunderstorm the entire night and my cat didn't come home until 6 pm today. Discovered quickly that he was injured and found a vet that was still open. Drove there straight away. Now he is d...

Wall art, kind of

I forgot to go to bed last night, because i was making myself something to have on the wall in the hall. I 
used my own pictures and found quotes i liked to put on them. 
i think they t...

Made a bracelet

Bracelet I made today. Clean and simple. Just making things up as I go.

Childhood memories

A little upgrade for my childhood dresser. I used to have doll clothes in this. And apparently biscuits, that had dissolved to something not so nice after at least 25 years in there. I'm going to ...

A good thing that happens when it's raining

This guy spend some time indoorsIt was so nice to have him sleeping like thisLook at this cute little faceHe lifted my mood a bit.
Paint me Black

Paint me Black

41, Re

Woman with AvPd (avoidant personality disorder), social phobia, ADHD and depression.

I'm honest and don't hide anything here but mine and others identity.

I'm a mom to two teenagers.

I have weekly individual therapy with a psychologist and I have meetings weekly with a psychiatric nurse.

My wishes is to be able to manage life without breaking apart at every little bump in the road.

I want to live, but not like this for the rest of my life. That's why I am trying to do something about it.