juli 2014

Life is hard now

I'm struggling real bad.

"Just nope"

-no no no no no.

Reality is creeping back

Tomorrow my "vacation" is over (that means those days without having to think about the reality, aka money trouble and so on). I have an appointment at 11am with H. I like the days where I'm able...

The cupboard

The cupboard is done. I need to get a few more bolts, but it's just to put them in place when I get them. It's just like I wanted it to be, so I'm satisfied with it. Now I can fill it up with stuf...

Some diy

I made one of my sweaters a little less plain by sewing this pattern on. It's black fabric that I put underneath the grey one. Sewed the pattern trough both fabrics. Cut the grey fabric on the insi...

Long depressing rant....

I'm not doing so good. But I can't talk to anyone about how things really are, because I don't want anyone to get worried. And I do not want to get anyone so worried that they want to admit me to ...

I hate having anxiety

It's when you start to tidy in your closet in your bedroom because being in your own living room is making you too anxious. Just because the landlady, her son and his wife plus kids, are outside yo...

Then a new phone is on it's way...

My friend C that I already are paying down on a loan to, said that she could lend me what I needed. So my loan will take 4 months longer to pay down, but at least there is no extra money beside the...

My phone broke...

And I have to have a phone.That means I have to borrow money again. Great...

When people say money doesn't make you happy...

they must assume you are healthy so you are able to work to make a living.
And not only that... they must mean that you have a job or will be able to get a job that gives you enough money to ...

Yay... not

I just found out that my landlady have to increase the rent. So that's not good. 500 kr (that's about 80 dollars) more each month from september 1. I have a big bill to pay at the end of this mont...

1 juli 2014 Not the best day

I'm overwhelmed. Too much. Visited my parents from thursday to Sunday. Big celebration of them on saturday. Took too much energy. I can't stay for so long there. Tough conversation with H yesterday...
Paint me Black

Paint me Black

41, Re

Woman with AvPd (avoidant personality disorder), social phobia, ADHD and depression.


I'm honest and don't hide anything here but mine and others identity.

I'm a mom to two teenagers.

I have weekly individual therapy with a psychologist and I have meetings weekly with a psychiatric nurse.

My wishes is to be able to manage life without breaking apart at every little bump in the road.

I want to live, but not like this for the rest of my life. That's why I am trying to do something about it.

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