juli 2010



Do you really care...

Copyright-PaintmeBlack.blogg.no Not sure anyone really care.Why bother...I'm useless, hopeless and wasted.Why should I hope?Tomorrow proves me wrong again and againI just don't see a future I want...


I'm feeling quite mentallyunstable when I'm crying whilewatching CSI...

Sad and tired

Said godbye to my kids today. They are leaving to be on a boat trip with theire father and his family (and hers).They will be gone for three weeks. Have been extremely exhausted and tired while th...

Can't go to sleep

Can't get that bloody man out of my head. Can't get to sleep. I'm furious.And it's me who have to pay for it...Wan't to dissapear, just swallow all of my meds and hurt my self. But I can't do it no...

Bloody eks-father-in-law

I'm just not going to be able tofeel good about my life!I have got yet another letter from the bonehead about money he seems to think I owe him.I'm so glad I have a lawyer that I can go to.I scanne...

Better times

Things are going more smothely again. It has actually been good for a while.Things around me have settled down.It's summer, I have got a little tanned and I'm enjoying the scent of summer.So right ...
Paint me Black

Paint me Black

40, Re

Woman with AvPd (avoidant personality disorder), social phobia, ADHD and depression.

I'm honest and don't hide anything here but mine and others identity.

I'm a mom to two teenagers.

I have weekly individual therapy with a psychologist and I have meetings weekly with a psychiatric nurse.

My wishes is to be able to manage life without braking apart at every little bump in the road.

I want to live, but not like this for the rest of my life. That's why I am trying to do something about it.