I hate having anxiety

It's when you start to tidy in your closet in your bedroom because being in your own living room is making you too anxious. Just because the landlady, her son and his wife plus kids, are outside yo...


Today is a day where my anxiety is a bit worse.
And there are no reasons for it to be there at all.
I'm home alone. 
I have slept well. With the help of medication I slept long an...

I thought my bookshelf's was a man

I hate when I "see" things that scares me.
But I'm glad it only is my imagination,
because then I'm only scared for a moment.


My chest hurts. My heart has been acting strange tonight. Not having a hart attack or anything. It's just anxiety. Going to bed.


I've finished the email to my sister. And I'm terrified! I'm going to send it tomorrow. Already regretting this, but I have to do it. I have written it in as nice tone as I possibly could. And ...

31 august 2013...

I'm trying to concentrate, but it's not easy when the landlord is building something or whatever it is that he needs a hammer for... It's annoying and makes me anxious.

25 agust 2013... I did it!

And now I feel guilty and terrible. I haven't done anything wrong, but my feelings don't believe me. Almost burst into tears when I was safe inside my apartment again. I'm shaking and want to cr...

25 august 2013...

I'm writing the resignation of the apartment here. I'm having a hard time breathing. My mouth is bone dry. It's hard swallowing and my chest hurts. Why does it have to be so difficult doing an pe...

23 august 2013

I'm so lucky. I'm having yet another bad day. Last night my son told me he had a doctors appointment this morning. Could I drive him... It takes about 40 min. First I said no, he had to take the b...

20 august 2013... Anxiety and lots of it

I don't think I have ever had a anxiety attack like the one I've had to day and that still lingers in me. I'm exhausted. Today was group therapy as it is every tuesday. I was very nervous about ta...
Paint me Black

Paint me Black

41, Re

Woman with AvPd (avoidant personality disorder), social phobia, ADHD and depression.

I'm honest and don't hide anything here but mine and others identity.

I'm a mom to two teenagers.

I have weekly individual therapy with a psychologist and I have meetings weekly with a psychiatric nurse.

My wishes is to be able to manage life without breaking apart at every little bump in the road.

I want to live, but not like this for the rest of my life. That's why I am trying to do something about it.