I did it.

I was able to write things I needed to tell the psychologist.

I was able to show it to him.

I was able to get through the session almost without losing my words.

I was able to make myself a little bit understood.

Am i happy about it...

No, I'm not able to feel that I am.


A bit relieved.

Hope for the future in therapy...

A tiny bit more than before.

I was totally exhausted after.

So I spent several hours on the couch when I got home.

Then I was finally ready to get something to eat.

Frustrating to feel stupid after one has been able to talk.

Feel small and difficult.

Not because of anything the psychologist said or did

but because my head is sick and are ruining for me.

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Paint me Black

Paint me Black

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Woman with AvPd (avoidant personality disorder), social phobia, ADHD and depression.

I'm honest and don't hide anything here but mine and others identity.

I'm a mom to two teenagers.

I have weekly individual therapy with a psychologist and I have meetings weekly with a psychiatric nurse.

My wishes is to be able to manage life without breaking apart at every little bump in the road.

I want to live, but not like this for the rest of my life. That's why I am trying to do something about it.