I hate having anxiety

It's when you start to tidy in your closet in your bedroom because being in your own living room is making you too anxious. Just because the landlady, her son and his wife plus kids, are outside your windows fixing things. I had to take medication to be able to calm down.

I had planned to barbecue today... that didn't happened because I couldn't do anything involving me being outside. But the dinner was good cooked indoors as well.

I wasn't even alone today. My kids are here, but that didn't make my anxiety feel any more manageable.

Damn it how I hate that my anxiety makes so many things so difficult to get through on a daily basis.

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Paint me Black

Paint me Black

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Woman with AvPd (avoidant personality disorder), social phobia, ADHD and depression.

I'm honest and don't hide anything here but mine and others identity.

I'm a mom to two teenagers.

I have weekly individual therapy with a psychologist and I have meetings weekly with a psychiatric nurse.

My wishes is to be able to manage life without breaking apart at every little bump in the road.

I want to live, but not like this for the rest of my life. That's why I am trying to do something about it.